Monday, October 16, 2006

The Waiting Game

I didn't mean to leave you hanging, but I'm kind of waiting to hear back from the doctor's office. They said they'd call after 4PM and so, since it is only quarter 'til, I'm not gonna get my panties all twisted yet. Really, since the previous debacles, of which there were many, they've been quite on the up and up.

Anyway, the spotting stopped yesterday. And really, it wasn't much AT ALL. More like a tinge to be honest. I had a tiny bit more this morning, then nothing more all day.

The thing is, I don't think it was the bad kind of spotting. Am I totally naive? Am I in oblivious denial? Actually, I think you all know how absolutely grounded I am about this pregnancy = baby thing, and I don't feel like this is denial at all.

I'm well aware that any kind of spotting is not good. But, I'm no longer freaking out. We'll just wait and see what the doctor says. Also, given that all three of the other miscarriages were accompanied by spotting much worse than this, and cramps, and a complete and utter feeling of horror because I knew deep, down inside that it was over, this episode is different. I feel like I would *know* if something was awry. And I'm not getting that 'knowing' feeling at all.

I'll definitely keep you all updated of things as I learn them. I guess for now we just wait and see. Which is no fun at all, let me tell ya. But I don't have much of a choice in the matter.

Hang in there Odd. I'd really like to meet you someday.

13 Leg Humps:

Ginamonster said...

I'm on the edge of my seat, darlin.

Anonymous said...

I have been where you are. With my daughter's pregnacy I spotted for 6 weeks straight. Very scary. With all my miscarriages though, I just new it wasn't going to be good, the spotting was different, the feelings were just negative.

Hold on to those positive thoughts. You'll be fine! ((HUG))

Anonymous said...

you both - no wait all three (zube boy) which brings me to a question are there 2 little Zube heart thumps? cause that would rock in my little world... Anyhoo on a more important note I hope the Dr reasure you and that in a few you can be complaining of being a blip and craving something icky....

Amy said...

Go with your gut instinct and don't worry yourself needlessly. Women have such great intuition and we just know when something is wrong with our kids... if you don't know like that, then all is well.

Keeping my fingers crossed and my lucky rabbit's foot on-hand for you!

justdawn said...

I think we ALL would like to meet Little Odd one day...

And I think you are totally right to listen to that little voice inside of you. If you *feel* like everything is alright, then it probably is:) Keep us posted and we will all keep sending prayers and good thoughts your way!

GROW, ODD, GROW!!!

Shal said...

I spotted for a day or so when I was 7 weeks along. and now have a 14 month old. I am hoping all is well with Odd and you! :)

Frustrated Mom said...

Zube-

I have been having spotting with this pregnancy also. But, an ultrasound showed everything to be okay and the Doctor isn't worried, so I am not letting myself get to worked up about it either.

I agree with everyone else. A mother's intuition is key. If you feel like everything is okay, then it probably is.

Hang in there Odd. You've got one kick ass fan club already!

Take care Zube. Even if you feel like you aren't doing anything...I feel the same way this pregnancy. Like all I do is eat and sleep. It's best for you and Odd.

Miss Cellania said...

Its good that you can go on your own experience, as bad as those experiences are. Maybe that was the purpose all along- to reassure you when the time really comes.

Anonymous said...

Alright Odd,

I know your mommy from way back when (it seems as though it was a long time, but really it isn't). I have been reading her blog for some time now and can relate to most of what she says. I was told that I would never be able to have kids, and I have two beautiful children. My last one had me bleeding and spotting for a long time and the worry that I felt made things worse. So I ask you, please be careful in there, don't break any vessels or anything else that would cause this worry in your mommy. We want you all to be safe and sound and we want to be able to meet you....so try to let your mommy take a break from the worry. Work with her here...kick her a little to let her know you are staying for the long haul. I will send you some presents if you do your part :).

Thanks,

Me

Northern_Girl said...

Hang on, Odd. And hang on Zubes. Everyone is pulling for you!

Anonymous said...

I'm sure that being in a calm headspace helps things. As long as you are not freaking, you'll stay chilled. Big up from me

junebee said...

Well, hang in there. There's alot of good comments above and I don't have anything better to add.

Anonymous said...

I think you really need to go with your gut feeling. Throughout pregnancy you'll worry about a lot of things, often really stupid things, and you'll need your instinct to tell you when something is really wrong. And sure, any spotting is cause for worry, but that doesn't necessarily make it "not good". Sometimes it just "is" (which is what I had with a friable cervix), and doctors often don't know what's causing it anyway. So go with your gut and hang in there!

 

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